Mother's Day, 2009 ...

Today is Mother's Day, 2009. I want to begin by saying that today is a day of blessing. A day of love. A day to cherish. And a day of hugs. Nikki is spending hers praying that God release her baby boy Devyn from fear, and let him into the gates of heaven, JUST NOT TODAY. For those of you who that have been asking.. Nikki and Joe have spent night by night and day by day by Devyn's side since April 23'2009. Last Sunday, the tubes were removed by Devyn himself and were not put back in. The doctors said he would probably pass that day or the next. It has been 7 days. God wants to take him, but our little boy is stubborn, for SURE. He just keeps holding on. His breathing is shallow, and he is sleeping. He has been sleeping for 7 days now, waiting to go play with the other baby angels. The doctors have him very medicated and he is basically sleeping very peacefully. At this point, it is just a waiting game. His little heart just doesn't want to stop beating for his mommy. And reality is, it will stop soon, BUT NEVER FOR HIS MOMMY.

Once again, we appreciate the wishes and prayers. Nikki needs them. Please keep them coming. We ask that you pray Devyn stays with us for at least today, for I do not believe any mother should lose their child on Mother's Day, and Nikki has asked we all pray that he stay with her today. I have a child myself, and celebrating today means something it never meant before. I hope you all hold your children tight today, whether they are 2 or 92, and thank god that he has kept them with you. Please say a prayer for our family today and smile, because one thing is for sure... Devyn wouldn't want you to frown today. And Nikki, God Bless your heart. I found this poem below, and thought I would share with you..

What Makes a Mother

I thought of you all, I closed my eyes
and prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother
and I know I heard Him say,
A Mother has a baby.
This we know is true. But God can you be a Mother
when your baby's not with you?"Yes you can!", He replied
with confidence in His voice,
"I give many women babies,
when they leave is not their choice."Some I send for a lifetime
and other's for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb
but there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared His throat
and then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you
what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile
with other children and say,"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom
who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quick
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep
on her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek
and whisper in her ear,
Mommy don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."So you see
my dear sweet one,
your children are OK. Your babies are here in my home
and this is where they'll stay. They'll wait for you with me
until your lesson is through.
And on that day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of
right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize
that you are a Mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with me one day
and know you're the best one.
Written with love
for all the Mother's missing their babies
by Jennifer Wasik